" Happy Birthday Katie !!!! "

Happy Birthday Katie... I love you very very much.. You have become a beautiful woman and a great mom. Im proud of you.. Im soo glad your my sister..

" Back Home "

Yes boys and girls- I have made it back from my journey.. In the last two days- Ive been in 5 states.. CRAZY huh? Man, I didn't know I could drive the distance I did, but- Scarlett and I made it !! I have been to Kentucky, Tennessee, Arkansas, Oklahoma and Texas within the past two days.. AND.. I only got pulled over once !!! Ok, so I guess I was speeding a little.. ( 78 in a 55 ) but- to my defense- the 55 sign was right after this huge hill I went over- so by the time I was coming down the hill- There was no way I could have slowed to 55.. from 70 something " ).. I'll post more later about the trip- Oh yeah- there's so much more to talk about.. Until tonight.. p.s. I didn't get a ticket ..Can you say THANK GOD ! I'm sure that would have been expensive !

" The Need To Feel Needed "

That age old question.. What is life about.. When asked before tonight I would have said simply.. Life is about Love. Love in every form. Period.. Thats what I would have said. But. Not now.. The " Need To Be Needed can be a close runner up and or even tie with Love. I was told tonight that literally" Nothings falling aprt while youre not here" " You are not needed here" Wow.. What an ego blow huh? That really sucked. I could never imagine how bad those words would make me feel. Some one who is supposed to love me doesnt need me? What the hell is that about? Huh? I would never utter those words to anyone I love. Period. Im shocked at how hurt I really am. I would never imagine how deeply that would hurt.. What profound words. What a profound statement to make reguarding someone's being. Or should I say dissreguaring someone's being. I would consider myself a pretty independant woman. I never really " Needed " anyone to need me or vice versa. I guess I started buying into the idea of " being Loved" and totally forgot about the dark side of opening yourself up to being hurt. How soon we forget huh? Love is blind.. Or is it?? I'm not sure if I should cry or run far far away.. Maybe, I'll do both...

Happy New Year

Well, it seems a new year is upon us. I'm sure there are many people around the world right now trying to stick to ridiculous resolutions that that will not keep. My x boyfriend used to complain every time this year because the gyms where packed with people resolving to get fit , which mad it more crowded for the people that normally go. So what- work at at home then. Personally I'm looking forward to the new year. This last one was long.. happy but long.. So today Im off to the brownest state known to man kind.. Yes, Im going to Oklahoma in the winter. Or Ok le me ho me.. as I like to call it. It doesn't matter the place is BROWN. PERIOD. I'll be happy to see my mom, Its been over a year, and honestly, OK is ok.. I'm sure there's worse places to be.. maybe.. So I start the new year driving 8 hours , me and Scarlett letting the wind go through our hair or fur in her case. Im looking forward to taking a reality break, although, I'm sure I'll be worried about things back here.. The beauty of it all is that- There will be nothing I can do about it. Hee Hee I need it.. I need the drive, I need to be around "my mom's people " I need to RELAX, and TRUST ME Oklahoma is the place to do just that. I'll be going to Tennessee after a couple of days in OK. So, at least I'll get to see some green color on this trip. Yall all have a great NEW YEAR... I'm off to start mine.. : )